Aimless ramblings

Today my horoscope told me that I shouldn't be lazy.... yet here I am.. doing just that. I ran to Benjamin Franklins and bought a canvas. I'm going to paint today.

I was a super art geek in high school and spent every free moment of my time in the art room working on masterpieces. I have a few of them still littered around my condo.... and many of my paintings were apprehended by my sister to artfully decorate her apartment.... Not sure how she weaseled them out of me.

I haven't painted in quite some time, as well.. I have no time. No excuses now though right?? Unemployment is oh so joyously filled with time.

So here I am... trying to come up with some inspiration, which no doubtedly will come from the fall scenery around me. I'm feeling orangish today.

On another note, my little Rowan officially turned 2 1/2 on the 18th. 2 1/2!!! Crazy eh? What a huge difference between 2 and 2 1/2. She speaks now in coherent albeit somewhat broken sentences. But she can definitely get a point across and express her thoughts and most importantly her opinions... something she never fails to have. She's 2 lbs heavier to the whoa of my poor husband whom is now riddled with back pain and she's 1 1/2 inches taller. I put a pair of pants on her yesterday that have fit her for the last year and they were disastrously short. She looked ridiculous, but alas, she went to school that way because I was to lazy to change her. Hmm... back that lazy thing again... I should probably work on that.

She and I have started to fight often. It could be that I have my period this week so I'm short on patience. And when I get grouchy, her mood only gets worse. This morning was the type of morning I could not wait to drop her off at school. It sounds awful, but trust me, we needed the space. It could be that she woke me up at 5 am... crawled into my bed, and kept me half awake for the next hour and half by kicking me just as I dozed off. At one point I snapped.. shoved her away and yelled at her. (I was half asleep, please don't think I'm mean parent).

Speaking of periods can I just say what the F%$& to that? I have had an IUD since Rowan turned one. For the first 6 months, I spotted nearly every single day and it was sooo frustrating. My husband was fully convinced it was an effective form of birth control because I just bled all the time, making it impossible to be intimate. I know I know.. some people still "do it" during that time.. but I just can't... I just feel icky.

Anyhow after that first 6 month window.. my period finally stopped... I got maybe one or two after that which were very heavy.. and then all of a sudden it stopped. And for the last year I have not had a period at all. Accept for this month... and last month some very light spotting. So What the F%&$ people? Why is it back? Have I not earned the right to be rid of it all together after 6 long months of bleeding every day? At one point I even called the OB to make sure I wasn't going to die of blood loss.... it was that bad! Yet here I am, with Mr. Happy period... and quite frankly its pissing me off. And apparently its pissing Rowan off too.