Nothing.....

Do you know how frustrating it is to be unemployed? it sucks. And I am truly unemployed.. I know many women that do the stay at home thing, but alas, i'm not even doing that. Being a stay at home mom, is a job. I bring my munchkin to preschool everyday at 8 am and then return home to an empty immaculate house... to do... Nothing.

I feel at this point I am nothing... well that's not very nice to say.... I'm nothing for the 7 hours a day that I'm home alone.. without child.. whit out hubby. Then they get home and things are normal... supper to cook, baths to give, books to read. But for 7 hours a day...I am here by myself. At first it rocked.... I hadn't been alone in probably, well, 2 1/2 years. See the significance there?

(ooh revelation.. perhaps I'm not nothing, perhaps I'm just me... someone I don't get to visit often because I have a toddler)

Now I'm in my 4th week of home aloneness and its getting a bit old. Let me tell you about my day. Dropped Rowan off at school.. Drove home wondering if I'd have enough gas to get me through the week... 1/8 of a tank. Oh yeah, plenty. I own a honda after all and I drive a whopping 10 miles a day to drop her off and come home. My car gets 30+ miles pers gallon. Since I am not working, nothing to worry about there, no commute right??? grrrrrr

I get home... grab all the laundry upstairs.... fill the dish washer, and then proceed to read a fellow blogger's blog, start to finish...it was like being sucked into a fantastic romance novel. I couldn't' stop. (www.creatingmotherhood.com) check it.

Then I cleaned some more, ate some lunch, way to many pieces of home made baklava.. emailed a few friends.. watched some tv... surfed a job board and now here I am blogging.

That's it. My day... like every other day.

Did I mention that before being laid off, I was a systems analyst? I spent my days being a project manager working on projects that could make or break the success of entire states within the huge corporation I worked for. I was sort of a big deal.

Ok maybe that's an exaggeration, but I certainly had a very important role, and I had a lot of responsibility on my shoulders. Yesterday my most important task was to pick up new boot shoe laces for my husband at Kmart.... woo hoo.

Is it to much to ask for a job? Just one.... there are lots out there, and I just want one little ole job. Something to do monday through friday so that when saturday and sunday get here, I can look forward to the time off....